Gems lay hidden like laughter. Nights of a stillborn age — men and women out looking for things which don’t just appear in the culture. Alcohol is funneled down cackling throats. Desirous internal engines fire. Glances are cast, reeled, and cast again. Amongst we the peoples, those given over to poverties and guns, sickness born from the planes that traverse skies clouded and scratched with branches yet to bear leaves, are questions. Sleep doesn’t yet come, so I trace the crooked staff of the interrogative in search of. The windows sport reflective, mimetic orange clouds that hang ragged above the city. Responsibilities. Language. Filaments flicker in housings [and houses] not long meant for this world. I must vacate, starting anew with the coming of sunlight – a thought or a burrowing train streaking into the eyes. Cars slur about, motors flinging minutes from their exhaust pipes. Time roars right along. Doors swing open and laughter tumbles into the street, tangling me into a strangled, complicated, lonely syncopation. There is lunacy in neon. One way streets make true haste of direction. What am I trying to say, might I just be attempting to live in a physical world? Tolstoy claimed you couldn’t not think. Kafka gave us books, axes with which we might chop at the frozen sea of self. Wallace found it curious that hypocrisy and paradox were not the same thing. The roads and pitiless, obsidian nights stir beyond my still walls. Great men and women live, raging, their sails being shorn against born weather(s). I slip amongst them with my pen and paper. A witness, one slowly being brought to bear. These days will continue to spill and I’ll be there to sift through debris and dirt.

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Circuits fuse. Minds blow.

Resonant frequencies produce hertz from one end to the other. The city boiling and broiling, moods sent to heaven rain down. Light peripatetic. Thought haphazard and racing. This constructed reality needs us as much as we need it. Our eyes odometers accruing miles. Jagged and scarred, the world bends and births. Rainwater collects in a ditch. Errant lovers are strangers. Tea steeps and fingers press keys to form the words this mind feels appropriate. This being alive such a lovely, abject, excruciating thing. Who listens loudest when we fail? Who is first to salute our capacity for willingness and success? The brittle drama of sleep is a nice break from a scornful consciousness.

Ahead is a dark woods, mountains looming like supine antagonists, their peaks in aged whites. Beast and sex lie deceptively dormant. A black winged fowl fills the sky and we are alone to brace against sharp winds whispering great terrors.

The photographs are nothing but moments in time — these and all others. Achieving witness. They are records, listed examples of a world being seen.

The day opens gray, streetlights opaque, dormant and superfluous. What I wouldn’t give for smile from something considered beautiful. A crow dips a wing into my cup of tea. Early Grey for me, Obsidian for him. Rain falls in wheezy bursts of staccato that are punctual enough to keep me melancholy. Cars roar through the atmosphere. Fogs roll across the dark wooded hills west of the city, scouring like eyes and firmly rooted in mystery. The buds on trees are days from opening, watching the sky with the rest of us.

Those caged vans with the lights, sirens, wheels coupled to chassis, pouring down the street carrying Hemingway’s dead. You beneath those sucking sodium arc lamps proffered at gas stations and used car lots. In this case, the former. Ancient bones compressed, melted or something, and sent to the surface to be sucked up and given over to moments such as these. Though I wouldn’t want to see an ambulance any other way, not really. They are masters who return chaos to its leash. The grizzly. The macabre. The stunning. Repackaged and sent unfathomably through a rain soaked evening in the back of what looks like a wheeled acid trip. Traffic lights all green. Pedestrian mouths slack with the mild thought that the sky is perspiring and I must find cover. The Great Mind is rent apart, torn from its reality just as those injured were torn from theirs. To bear witness is an act requiring courage; depth and clarity as afterthought or responsibility.

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